So Proud of my 3 year old

Today we were playing outside...when he came over to me and told me his hand hurt.  I asked him why it hurt and he said "the stick did it".  I didn't know what he was talking about so I looked at his hand, and he had a splinter in the meat of it.  It was in just deep enough that tweezers weren't working to get it out so we had to get a needle and go after it.  He didn't cry at all and just sat there like a good little boy while we got it out.  Now he insists that he needs a bandage to make it feel better...lol.  Needless to say after being so good about it all he got his bandage, and some ice cream!!  

Crazy Child

     So I just had to share what my crazy 20 month old did to me yesterday.  I decided I was going to clean out the refrigerator and when I had my back turned I guess he got the baking soda out of the door.  When I turned back around he had a pile going from the kitchen all the way across the living room to the toy box.  He had also poured a good amount in the toy box!  Let me tell you, that was just so much fun to clean up!! Guess that will teach me not to turn my back on him anymore :)  

Wow...been writing in this blog for 8 years :)

     It's kind of fun to read through all of the old posts and remember stuff from 8 years ago tho :)  So what's new on my home front??  I have moved back to NC and it looks like for all intensive purposes my husband and I are no longer together.  Although that wasn't the case when I first came back.  I moved back because due to circumstances beyond our control, I was no longer employed and my husband wasn't really making enough to help support us so his parents wound up doing all the supporting and it was wearing on their wallets.  I was getting tired of mooching off his parents so I decided I would move back here and hopefully get a job soon after and be able to support my own family.  Yet it didn't work out that way, so I have basically moved out of one mooching situation into another.  The bad part about this one is my husband is making sufficient money that he could help out but we had a fight awhile back and since then he has not called me, or his sons.  He has withdrawn all financial support.  So now my mom is supporting me and the boys...which is not how this was supposed to work out.  
     I have tried and tried to find a job at basically any place of employment/industry you can think of.  But I am either overqualified for the positions or not the right match at the time.  Grrr....  it's annoying.  
     Oh yeah, I also had another son...born on December 11, 2010.  Another whoops child from my husband and I.  He is now 20 months old and omg he is headstrong!!!  lol.  I thought my older one was bad but with this one if you tell him no or not to do something he will turn around and do it out of pure spite.  
      Ok...back to the original update lol.  I have recently finished taking a Pharmacy Technician course through Penn Foster online...and I hope to be able to go on and get certified here soon.  But, that all depends on money again.  It is 129 dollars for the certification.  I hope I can find something soon.  Even if it is just until I get the certification and can find a job as a pharm tech.  Seems like everything is working out wrong for me right now...but I just gotta keep looking for the silver lining.  I guess when life gives you lemons all you can do is make lemonade, right??  
      As far as my weight loss goes I am back up to almost 250.  I was back down around 200 when I first moved here but now I have started gaining like crazy again.  It's kinda funny how with my first son I gained a bunch of weight during the pregnancy but with my second I lost a bunch.  Yet my oldest is my skinny mini and my youngest is my chunky monkey :)  And I wouldn't trade either one of them in for the world!!  Yes they are trials at times but the times when they are loving and playful make up for it.  
     Well, I guess that is it for now.  TTYL!! (like, mebbe another couple of years seeing as how that seems to be how it works out).  

so...we moved...

...to Missouri :)  It's where my husband's family is at and his father isn't in the best of health anymore so we wanted to come out here to help out as much as we can.  I am officially an aunt again...my sister in law had her baby this morning at 4:28am...a little girl weighing in at 7lbs 3ozs and she was 20 inches long.  She is precious.  I am feeling a little homesick today and missing my father because I got to watch my husband's father holding this little bundle of joy (who has her grandpa wrapped around her little finger already) and all I could think about is that is what my dad would be like if he had been able to hold Ron or any of his grandchildren.  It always amazes me how small things like that can bring my dad to mind in a heartbeat.  I miss him so much.  I miss my mom too as we moved away from her to come here.  But I still think I did the right thing.  I only wish it wasn't so hard for me to find a job.  I really don't want to go back into retail or fast food but it is looking like those are the only places that will be interested in hiring me anytime soon.  My husband pretty much got a job offer at a security company...he just has to wait for his background check to come in and then they will let him know the details.  He also has a physical scheduled with the department of corrections on April 7th to be a corrections officer.  I really wanted to get a state job as a secretary and I tested good but I have had no job offers so evidentally it wasn't good enough.  It makes me wonder what I can do to please people anymore.  Oh well, mebbe things will start looking up soon.  One can only hope right??

My son is a little bundle of energy now, he walks all over the place and constantly chatters to himself.  If only we could bottle a child's energy it would be great....use it whenever we want...lol.  OK that's it for now...ttyl!!

My son is 1 year old...

In a sense I feel proud that he has made it this far with me as his mother...lol.  When I was pregnant with him I sure had my doubts.  But he is still my pride and joy...and I love him to pieces. 

Recently here in Fayetteville a little 5 year old girl went missing last Tuesday...the circumstances were very shady.  Well, they have found the little girl....dead..yesterday.  I feel for that little girl, no one should have to go through what she did.  The news is that her mom is charged with human trafficking and prostituting her child out.  No child deserves that...NOT ONE.  It makes me wonder what the mother was thinking to do that stuff to her child.  The story is the child just came to live with her mother 3 weeks before she went missing.  Shaniya ( the little girl) was the product of a one night stand.  Her father had kept her up until then but he decided to take a chance and let her go stay with her mother because her mother showed promise that she was changing and was really interested in getting to know her little girl.  Oh, if he only knew what the mother had planned.  A lot of people judge him for letting the girl go...but I don't see it as his fault.  He decided to take a chance and give the mother a chance to get to know her daughter...it just didn't turn out good at all.  The guilt he must feel.  I pray for him because I could only imagine what he is going through.  To put myself in his shoes...if something were to happen to Ron I don't think I would be able to go on.  At least now she is with the angels in heaven and she won't have to deal with this mess anymore..  I pray the people who are truly responsible for this heinous crime are tried and convicted with the proper punishment.  Shaniya Nicole Davis will remain in many people's memories forever.  Even those (such as I) who did not know her are seriously rocked by this news.  The fact that there is a human trafficking ring here in NC rocks our world alone but the fact that this young innocent died because of it...it's unthinkable but sadly true.

I cried last night because of this poor girl and her story.  My husband, being the man that he is, mistakenly thought I was crying because I somehow thought I could have done something to prevent it or that I somehow thought it was my fault.  But that was not it.  I cried for the lost innocence, the loss of her life.  Who knows what little Shaniya would have grown up to be?  She could have been the one that finally came up with the cure for cancer or various other diseases.  So I guess this message is just to vent my feelings about this story....but to also encourage all other parents out there to sit back and review their lives with their children.  Are you really doing all you can for them??  Take good care of them...for you never know what could happen. 

If you want to read the story about this little girl.. Click Here  and...  here

Ok...so it's been forever

Almost a year since I've updated this thing. Like I said in the prior post...I suck at updating. My son was born on October 28, 2008. 5 weeks early. He is now almost 10 months old and doing great. He is a hoot I swear. Even if I am having a bad day when he gets up to his antics I can't help but smile/laugh. Right now we are having problems on the extended family health front. My brother in law has been diagnosed with lupus...which if you don't know much about it it is an incurable disease in which the autoimmune system attacks the tissues of the body. So he is more than likely gonna have to quit work and go on disability. My sister (the one that had the brain tumor removed and has had seizures/strokes ever since and is on disability already) has had a kidney stone for a while now that cannot be passed. The doctor ran some blood tests on her then called her when he got the results telling her she had to come back in immediately. Come to find out her potassium levels at the time of the test were a plus 10....when it's that high you are supposed to be dead...according to the doc. So he ran some more tests and I guess nothing was found this time so he is just waiting to see if he can get her in for surgery to remove the stone before the 31st...which was the original date he wanted to do it. Then I called and talked to my mother in law and my father in laws leukemia is getting worse...they are talking about they may have to put him on chemotherapy soon. So overall yesterday was not a good day as I found all this out then. To top it all off Jon and I are having problems on the money front...basically living paycheck to paycheck and it's starting to get really tight. I tell you...when it rains it pours.

On the plus side we are planning my baby's first birthday party for the 26th of October (the 26th because it is a day my mom has off and we can just ask for it off and use personal time). I am getting excited about that. He is the joy of my life and I want him to have as much fun as possible...even tho he probably won't remember it. I will make sure to take plenty of pictures tho....as I am sure it's gonna be hilarious with the cake. Ok, I guess that is it for now. My life in a nutshell ;)

So I was pregnant...

Lol...I just didn't know it! I was only like 3 weeks along tho at our wedding...we found out the week after we got married. I know I know...I suck at updating this thing. I am now 29 weeks pregnant soo...not long before the due date eh? I can't wait. Of course only bad thing is it has definitely shot my weight right back up...but at least it's for a good reason!! We are expecting a baby boy on November 30th...or somewhere thereabouts. We are both excited/nervous but I think we will be fine.

Work is going ok....I just wish somedays that people would learn how to read..lol. Or how to count...whichever it is. I work on the cigarette aisle which is 20 items or less unless you are buying cigarettes and people keep coming through there with 60 or more items which presses me greatly for space and drives me nuts...lol. And of course being pregnant=hormones are crazy so sometimes I just lose my cool. Ugh....I wish there was some way to alleviate that particular symptom but so far I haven't heard of one. Jon is doing good....just getting kinda bummed cuz he's applied for a good job that we really thought he would have no problems getting....but hasn't heard anything back from them and it's upsetting him. He's called twice and all they keep telling him is he should hear something in a couple of days. Blah...I wish they would just come right out and let him know what is going on instead of basically stringing him along. We've definitely got to find a bigger apartment now cuz while the one bedroom was perfect for just the two of us....we now have baby Ronald to worry about too. Yes, I am calling him Ronald...after my dad. His middle name will be James after Jon's dad. Well, at least so long as the doctors didn't make the same mistake with me as they made with his sister and told us the wrong gender of the baby. She was told she was having a girl and when she had the child....it was a boy!! So she had to get all new stuff...she had everything for a girl (including the name) and it took her awhile to figure out a boy's name for her child..lol.

In other news I am kinda down today as it is the anniversary of my dad's death. For some reason every year about this time I get really depressed and feel almost as if I am losing him again for the first time. I guess I just haven't figured out how to get past my grief and until I do I will go through this every year. I guess you could say I am kind of in denial still...the grief cycle just doesn't want to go away even though it's been ten years. It still feels like it's fresh sometimes...and I just dunno how to deal with it. Oh well, I have gotten through it every year prior so I am sure I will be ok now. I am gonna wrap this up now. TTYL!!